Mine is Yuri on Ice. When I first watched it, I became so obsessed that I rewatched it like 6 consecutive times, replaying certain scenes over and over. It CONSUMED me. Like I was full on ACHING over it. I loved it so much, and yet I also felt terrible. Like I broke up with someone and though I still loved them, I couldn't have them anymore. I spent all my spare time on it for months.

I've rewatched it several times since that initial hyper-fixation period, but I still have to be careful when I rewatch it, in case I get stuck in the cycle again. If I rewatch it at the wrong time, I might devote TOO much time and mental energy to it and forget about all my other responsibilities. Even something simple like hearing the theme song makes my stomach sink with the ghost of that depressive "there's no more" feeling.

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